Excessive

Christmas eve is over, the gift exchange has taken place. It was an enjoyable time and everyone enjoyed themselves as far as I could tell. I always seem to have difficulty coming down from the enjoyable experiences.

Christmas is just a couple days away, and much like the last few years, Christmas is the least significant day relative to the two days that sandwich it. Christmas Eve being the night the family comes to my house to exchange gifts and eat snacks, spend time together and listen to Christmas music; Boxing day being the day the family comes over for dinner and we have our traditional Christmas dinner as a family.

I taste your kiss... it tastes like snow, The winter comes at last.

Alright so I somehow managed to stay up until 3am when earlier in the night... around 11:00pm, I could've fallen asleep in my chair. I don't know exactly how that always happens, but it does. Work was weird, I felt strange, obviously... I had a lot of drugs running through my system, and even the freezing they give me makes me feel funny, tired, strange.

I had nightmares last night... a very odd nightmare that was probably a combination and manifestation of a wide variety of thoughts and feelings, but it took place in Grey St. and with Michelle I think, but she hated me and was really mean, and I remember feeling really... hurt. There were other people there... Jon from work... and I was asked to make eggs for some reason... it was fucked up. It didn't leave me feeling very good, not at all.

How am I feeling? That's an interesting question... let me think. I'm feeling uncomfortable. I'm feeling physically uncomfortable, and mentally distracted and anxious. While, generally speaking, my day was fine, it was pretty draining, and now that I'm home, instead of actually relaxing like I honestly should've been able to do, I've been the complete opposite, I've been uncomfortable, my heart is pounding, I'm distracted and my mind is racing.

I wanted to write tonight but got distracted by brain storming with Calen about a new feature for Excessive Games, so I worked on that for a little bit and now I'm too tired to put any effort in to this entry.

I'm sure I'll write a longer, more official entry later tonight, but I'm sitting here bored and I figured I may as well do something with my brain while I wait for Julie to arrive. I worked today, and left a tiny bit early, just a half hour or something... the day went really well, but I started to get a headache and it just keeps getting worse.

Work was pretty relaxed and calm today, a nice change, a good day, nothing terrible or stressful happened, things just went according to plan and all was well.

Skyward Sword is a lot of fun, much more than that I thought it would be, specifically the motion controls. As I'm getting used to the motions required, it's becoming less frustrating, as I can make Link perform the moves I want without thinking about it as much. While I didn't get to play as much as I wanted to since I had to go in to work today, I did play for about an hour after my bath, and I had fun, and wish I could play more, but maybe it's better to play in small doses, to avoid burn out. I love the visual style, like... paint, and as things go into the background, into the distance... they become blogs of paint almost, it's really cool.

Well the majority of the day was good, however there are certain signs that perhaps I'm not doing that well, quite the opposite of depressed though, I'm irresponsible and careless, not thinking things through, making poor choices and while right now it made me happy, I'm sure I will get a sinking feeling in my stomach soon enough.