Excessive

I guess I forgot a few things in my last entry, and because I'm lazy, I'm just making an entire new one. HAH! How do you like that? Bunch of bastards... Basically just two things, one is a response to many comments/questions I've been getting about one of my entries, and another is something nice I found which some of you may or may not enjoy, I don't know, nor do I care. It was just bugging me that I had forgotten these things... I guess the fact that the writing and/or process of writing was driving me nuts feeling didn't really help with the remembering, and I was distracted by the talking to with Michelle (L), that I just couldn't continue writing... so I guess you can look at this as my continuation.

Most of today was spent with a bad headache, almost a migrane I suppose. I woke up early, due to hearing laughter and talking, which is understandable, but I wasn't rested enough, and got up off the back/neck killing couch (where I was sleeping due to Emily's sister staying over for two nights; I'm sure she won't mention it on her own website) and stumbled onto my bed as they were getting up. I slept there for a bit but woke up with an even worse headache. I was asked to go meet Emily and Katherine over at my Mom's house af ter they had gone to the movies, but my head hurt too much and I didn't want to move, so I didn't. I basically spent the entire day playing Disgaea and feeling like shit inside.

I finally reached over 200 hours in Disgaea. I think, and the keyword is think, I don't really have any more reasons to live. I accomplished so much that I guess I've done everything in life that's to do! Oooh, Disgaea, how I love thee.

Lately I've felt so ugly... everything about me I've been dissatisfied with, and not the normal way that people always see themselves as ugly, I mean in a disturbingly large amount of disgust. At first I thought it was maybe my hair... maybe my hair was making me feel horridly ugly.. so I cut it, and dyed it, but no, I still feel just as ugly. I think it's a combination of a lot of things. All of my clothes are dirty and I never have anything to wear, my socks are dirty and stinky, I only have about three pairs of underwear left, no pants I really like, and barely any shirts. I just feel dirty and gross and grimey all the time. I want to feel confident like I did in the summer... I want to get some style, feel good about myself.. but not in a stupid way... I'm not sure how to put it without making it seem like normal teen angst stuff... All I want to do is feel comfortable with how I look, and feel good when I walk to work, or walk home from work, or sit at work.. then again, I guess it doesn't really matter what I look like when I'm just sitting at work. I guess it's just a dream of mine...

prier from La Pucelle

Lately Nippon Ichi has captivated me and have completely caged my soul, and threw in a PS2 and their games as punishment. In other words, I've been unhealthily addicted to all Nippon Ichi games (a japanese game development company), La Pucelle, Disgaea and Phantom Brave. All are SRPG (Strategy Role Playing Games), all feature hilarious humour, mind blowingly deep gameplay and replay value you could have sex with. The graphics in all of the games are handdrawn 2d sprites, beautifully drawn and molded into the world.

Well, I don't really have a good way of replying to comments, especially when the people leaving comments ask me questions but don't leave emails.. *cough* Aaanyway, I thought I'd take this time to respond to some comments that have been left in the last few entries. Just for reference purposes, I'll be posting the original comment exactly as it was posted, and then referring to specific quotes of the comment with white.