Excessive

Iron and Wine are on Last Call with Carson Daily and they're going to be playing off of the Garden State soundtrack, and I want to go wake up Emily and have her enjoy it like I know she would, but I also know that no one wants to be disturbed while sleeping, no matter what; she'd just mumble and roll over... oh well, for some reason it makes me sad. Steven Colbere is also on the show, which she'd probably also enjoy.

It's come very apparant that Sunday night and/or early Monday morning TV blows ass. I'm sitting here, watching the discovery channel; Mythbusters to be exact. It's a show where two guys take various myths they've heard, barely believable stories, and then attempt to find out if they could be true or not. Like.. if face piercings raise your chance of being struck by lightning, or if a dog peeing on baking soda would cause a small explosion... so they just do various experiments to attempt to find out the truth... it was moderatley entertaining, although lacked something that would make me watch it again volountarily.

I've been overwhelmed with emotion lately, and it's a bit... well... overwhelming. I've been feeling such a mix of things, and not only am I feeling all these emotions, but I'm having an ass load of physical side-effects of being off of my pills: vertigo, dizzyness, sleeplessness, headache, lack of energy, restlessness and so on. I've felt so worthless and useless and lazy lately... like everyone would be better off if I were to just leave and never show my face again. I do nothing for anyone, and I'm too weak, as it's been proven and proven again, and it's quite depressing if I let it get to me, which lately I have. Good things are happening to Emily, and she's happy and accomplishing things, and here I am filing for EI, trying to get a job, trying to deal with these withdrawl symptoms, AND trying to get my psychilogical self in check, and it's just way too much for me to take. If I let it all get to me at once, it seriously feels like my heads going to explode... and I'm lost as to what to do to get away from that feeling, to relax, or to feel good about myself, because no matter which way you look at it, I'm just a miserable, depressed failure.

So earlier this afternoon I finished Resident Evil 4 on normal mode and it was quite the satisfying experience. The last boss was lovely; not to give anything away of course, but it was difficult enough to make it a fitting end to a great game, but it wasn't so hard that it's just frustrating and retarded. The story didn't exactly... wrap up... a lot of things were introduced during the course of the game, which weren't wrapped up before the end of the game, but that's only because they left the game open, so that there can be a sequal, and they made it quite obvious there will be a Resident Evil 5 continuation of the story.

i beat it
more later

Agh. That's right... Agh. I have a headache. I've had a damn headache for two days now. I'm dizzy, faint, shakey and all around 'bleh' as the kids are saying these days. I guess I can partially blame it all on missing a few pills, and the rest... well, I don't really know. I barely have the energy to do anything, and it sucks to walk, or move etc. So I'm trying to take it easy today.. I'm doing okay.

Well since I've been running a 'Blog'/Website for over five years now, I figured I could put a bit of what I've learned in that time onto digital paper, and share it with those who also run such a website. I have a hard time reading various blogs because of many reasons... bleh.. I don't know where I was going with that.. aaanyway, I was in a writing mood, so after I wrote up a Resident Evil 4 review, I was doing the dishes and I just ran to the computer and started writing. Here are: The Rules of the Blog! Reader discression is advice... speak of penis touching is involved, as well as OPINION. So if you can picture me telling you to fuck off, just do so in advance. and for those of you who are just skimming, I'll put a link on it's own line, so you don't miss it... .. retards.