Excessive

Had a pretty brutally tiring day, started off pretty crappy, and ended okay I suppose, but I was dead tired and not really thinking straight anymore.

I don't really know why I like Teach: Tony Danza so much, but I look forward to it through the week more than most shows, which is interesting. I think it has something to do with just how vulnerable he is in that situation and it brings a lot of human issues and it's interesting to watch.

Today kind of felt crappy, it was slow, uneventful and dull. I did the laundry, but not until late in the afternoon, early evening. I watched Coraline... I didn't really do much else. Played a bit of StarCraft 2 with Ben during the early afternoon, then after dinner (pizza) the internet went down for a couple hours, so I just talked on the phone with Ben and watched a bit of Criminal Minds. Eventually the internet came back up, and Ben and I played a few more games until around 11:30 when I realized that I had to work tomorrow, and I should probably wind down, since I was pretty wound up from the games (they were pretty intense).

I slept in really late today, until maybe 12:00pm or something, pretty late, but I had stayed up until like 5:30am yesterday, so it was expected. I took a sleeping pill a half hour ago, so I don't really feel it right now, but I also have a headache, so relaxing isn't really an option at the moment. I'm just watching Teach, trying to feel tired and feel like I want to sleep.

I'm not really sure what's in store for me tomorrow at work, I know Rickman is in, I know that Jeff is in... but I don't know what events are on, or if I'll actually get off work on time to get to the grocery store or get home to eat a normal dinner and feel normal and okay.

I could go on but... specific topics are escaping me at the moment.

I can't sleep, but I haven't really tried, so I can't really complain. I stayed up late, and when it was getting late, around 2:30 or 3:00am, instead of winding down and heading to bed, I sat down and watched Jackass 2.5, which is a collection of interviews and skits that were cut from Jackass 2. I don't know why I like those guys so much, it's really unlike me, but I do, love them.

I kind of feel llke crying a lot right now and I don't really know why. Well, a chemical imbalance I suppose, but I just feel so strongly right now that I want to create something, do something, be creative, be impressive.

So I'm even more tired than yesterday, sore everywhere, headache, cuts on fingertips, sore burn, and I've lost my voice.

I'm pretty sure that taking the sleeping pills is the key to writing interesting or well written entries. I don't even notice it while it's happening but words just seem to flow out my fingers without me trying. I think a lot of it has to do with some of the side effects of the sleeping pills, specifically 'extreme short term memory loss' and for some reason I think that has something to do with it.

I tried to sleep... I laid down, I got as comfortable as possible, and I was more awake than I had been all day. I just couldn't be tired, no matter what.

I don't have a headache, but I'm not tired. I need to go to sleep now, I have to get up and go to school for a quiz, which should take about a half hour, then come home, eat lunch, then go to work for the night, which I regret agreeing to, since I'd prefer a night off before 13 hour shifts.

Oh my head, my head hurts so much. I feel like I'm dying! I'm falling apart! I don't know what the hell has gotten into my lately but it's terrible! TERRIBLE!