Excessive

I've been suffering from some pretty bad headaches the last day or two, but it was after quite a few days of no problems, so I guess it's alright. Last night got pretty bad and I felt pretty disoriented and out of it, I went through a lot of T1s and felt pretty crappy. I went to bed feeling this way and woke up early in the morning with an even more intense headache... I stumbled to the kitchen and took more pills and crawled back to bed, unsure if I'd be able to fall back asleep with so much pain in my head.

Who would've thought that I'd actually get around to playing tennis in my lifetime. I had always talked about it, and my Mom and I always said we'd try to play and stuff, but I suppose it all just came down to actually buying rackets and getting up the nerves to embarrass myself on a public court.

Today was a busy, irregular day. I was out and about, physically active, and didn't do much of anything I normally do.

After lunch I rode my bike to my Moms, where I helped set up her new computer, and eventually made dinner (mexican rice and chicken) and Bekki joined us when she was done work. From there we rode our bike to the path near the river and played catch for a bit before accidentally throwing the ball in the river. We decided to ride to the store to get some more balls and look at other sports equipment.

It's weird to think that not that long ago I was pretty much hopeless, with little thought of the future - yeah, I knew I hated my job, being yelled at and disrespected, and I knew I enjoyed programming, so my short term goal was to simply open up a new career path, but that hardly could be called a plan for a future. I had pretty much accepted the fact that I would die alone, and was okay with it, and had no plans for the future beyond continuing on and living my life day by day, enjoying the things I enjoy, and avoiding stress. Things aren't like that anymore. My mind is so full of plans for the future that it's difficult to keep track of it all, I have so many things to do, short term and long term, that I feel like I need to start making a long list so I don't forget some things.

I swear I'll make time to write tomorrow.

Today I found out Kairi might be worse than I thought, I went bowling with Ben and Phil, my leg has been bothering me and I'm super god damn tired.

The good, the bad and the ugly today. What I mean by that is that there were good things, bad things and just ugly things today, a wide range of feelings and experiences, it's a bit hard to process each one individually as they all conflict with each other.

Too many projects, too much school work, not enough time to do stuff, to write, to sit down. Disappointing.

Kinda sad, kinda upset, gonna lay down.

I'll write tomorrow about what I've been up to. Nothing special, but I feel bad for not writing.

Yes, this is officially my 2000th entry I've written for this website, technically speaking. There were a bunch of entries lost a few years ago, so that would've changed the total, but right now, this entry is the 2000th to appear in my database (including private or protected entries).

I am completely unprepared for my XML midterm tomorrow, so much so that it was only today that I found out that I even had a midterm in the class. I'm trying not to worry, feel regret, feel stupid and worthless, but it's difficult to fight those feelings when I already know how it's going to go. Common sense will net me between 30% to 50% of the questions, and the rest will be a struggle. I don't particularly know the syntax and differences between XPath and DOM XML parsers, nor much about IEnumerators. I'll guess and hope that I do well, I'm not really in a position to do otherwise at this point.