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I broke down. I downloaded Doom 3 finally. Yes, it was a twenty hour download of upwards of 3 gigs, but it worked. It downloaded, unzipped, extracted and installed perfectly, which was highly unexpected. Now you see, the way I looked at this game was much different than most other gamers; I had no expectations.. in fact, you could even say I had low expectations. Everyone was saying how godly and revolutionary this game is going to be, I just couldn't believe it, and didn't. I didn't buy it right away, and hell, I didn't even steal it right away... I never really got into the excitement that surrounded it..so when I loaded it up for the first time, I really had nothing to lose, no expectations to be crushed or any disappointment to soon follow. I loaded it up for the first time to basically see if it would run on my system. I set it to the 'optimized' seettings, which is when the software detects your hardware and then sets the games settings to their best for your system, and then I started a new game to see if the game worked. It did, although the framerate drops were very annoying and very much hurt the immersiveeness of the game... but I knew, as with all PC games, that I could tweak the settings of things and make it run better... how much better though, was the most important question... could the game be saved by tweaks set by fans, or will it stay a slugfest and not even get a night of my time... well, let's see what google had to say.
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I don't even know where to start... writing right now feels like some forced, unnatural process that I'm only doing because I know there are people coming here and wondering where the fuck I am. Yes, in the month of August, I've had well over 1500 hits to my website, which is amazing considering what it is, an uninfished personal journal of a unintersting fuck up. I'm not sure what that knowledge does to me... might make me feel like I have much more of an audience than I used to.. but then again, it might just give me more motivation to write better... but strangley, at least right now, it makes me wonder why it doesn't do anything to me at all. This entry is going to seem very unnatural, not flowing or anything... I'm forcing it all out and it hurts, but I have to do it. I'll do my best to get some good content in though, but I can't garauntee anything... we'll just see how it goes... besides, not that much has happened in the last little while really, so I don't know how long the entry will be anyway.
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It's probably quite obvious by now that it's increasingly difficult for me to update regularly while holding this job, but I think it's just because I'm not in the routine and the such... I mean, I'm sure if I set aside a time to do it, I could probably manage to keep it updated, but I don't think it will ever be as greatly updated as it has been in the last month or two, because I alsways used to do that when I was on my sleeping pills and really tired, and I had hours to do it, so now I don't think they'll live up to that standard, and that kind of pisses me off. I haven't been up to that much lately, but enough to justify an entry I suppose.
Shortly after I wrote that previous entry, Jess came online (Michelle's sister) and she actually did a decent job of cheering me up, without even knowing I was down, which makes it that much more appreciated, because she was just naturally nice to me, it had nothing to do with pity. Anyway, she wanted to send me a lot of pictures, because her and Michelle just recently bought a new computer with a webcam, so they've been going nuts with the pictures and obviously I want to see them.. all, as I am an official stalker and such. So I took her through step by step proceesses of downloading WinZip, installing it, cracking it with a crack I downloaded, then creating a zip file, than navigating to their photo directory, than selecting all (CTRL-A) and then adding them. Once that was done, I had to show her how to send it over MSN. These girls know nothing about computers, that much was obvious, but I enjoyed helping them because now if they want to do something like that again, they easily could. I wouldn't mind helping either of them learn more about Windows or whatever, because they caught on fast and didn't frustrate me.. all you other people, no dice. back away.