Excessive

Wait what? It's 5am? Shit.. I gotta go to sleep!

It was Wednesday and I had finished work, and came home. This would be where I normally write about work and what I did, but I honestly don't remember much detail, or really care enough to try and recall. The point is that I was home from work, okay? With me so far? Thanks.

Yesterday I went to my program's orientation session with one Mr. Benjamin Shirley. I asked him to go with me so I wouldn't have to go alone, as I probably would've been nervous to go all by myself, and he also has a car so that makes it easier too. Anyway, the orientation was at 11:00am to 12:00pm, and it was pretty much exactly the same as the first time I went, and didn't really introduce any new information, but I felt better going to it, since now I don't have to wonder if I missed anything important or whatever. Now I just wait for Tuesday to come and I'll go to my first class at 11am in F3002, and I hope everything goes well.

I had my first instance dungeon experience today. A guildmate invited me to do the Dead Mines, so I said sure, and he summoned me half way across the world and off I went. An instance dungeon is basically a long dungeon where only you and your party (up to five) work together to get through. Lots of team work and strategy come into p lay. I tanked, a Night Elf Druid kept me alive with healing, or helped me tank as a bear, there was also a Gnomish Warlock, a Human Paladin and a Human Rogue. The rogue pulled, I'd tank, and the others would do the damage. It was a lot of fun, and we got tons of loot.. toooons, like at least 4 or 5 blues, and at least 20 greens. I got a new shield, new belt, new bracers and lots of stuff to sell at the auction house.

Anyway, I took a few screens.

i dont know whether to embrace or reject. i have such strong emotions about both. im confused.. and hurting. my heart wants something, so bad.. my brain thinks my heart is a retard. something i dream about really happens and I freak out inside. maybe thats why it doesnt feel real at all.

I think I've temporarily lost my ability to form sentances and actually write... wait.. no.. looks like I'm doing something here. it's painful though.