Excessive

I have so many things in my head I'd like to write out but I never seem to be able to make the time to sit down and type it out. I have conversations with myself in my head, I have journal entries in my head, that I go over, and I say them, in full sentences. I'm a good writer, I just don't write anymore.

Objects, sentimental value, the desire to include others, to share. The frustrations with depression, lack of energy, a slump.

I feel like my mind sabotages itself. Out of my control, without my consciousness being aware of what's happening. After a long week of work, and the last day of it being a brutal attack on my sanity and physical body, you would think the first of three days off would be this unbelievable start to relaxation, and would feel great. The chance to do anything I wanted, no need to worry about time, but without warning or explanation, I feel tired and aimless, I feel like I'm wasting time.

Spent the last three nights alone.

Yeah so I'm back to work after taking a few days off - due to family emergency of course, and I guess it's not going that bad so far... actually my days almost over so that's a good sign.