Excessive

I'm tired and I suppose I should be; I woke up early this morning to go to work and here it is 12:07am and I'm just starting my night time routine. Ah well, I seem to fight sleep no matter what, nine out of ten times I will choose staying awake over going to sleep, as both generally leave me feeling tired. I am tired though, and things like... writing and reading for example, feel as though I need to struggle and really concentrate to do it, and it's not exactly pleasurable.

I have the burning desire to have a book tracking/book library website created and up and running already, I really want it, I get excited by the idea and yet the idea of actually sitting down to create it, or the effort it would take to create a nice layout for it, discourages me and stops me from even starting. On top of that, I have the money project still going and I actually have somewhat of a time limit on that, well... an optimal time goal I guess, where having it completed, or at least certain features completed, would make life easier and more structured and controlled and nice and safe and warm. It's hard to find motivation to do any of it really, and I'm just not in the mood at all, not even the slightest, to sit and do it, but today I forced myself and got a little bit done. Instead of it getting my juices flowing and getting into the groove, I was left feeling as unmotivated and uninterested in the project as I was this last week or two.