Excessive

I started the day feeling very lazy, feeling like I may not accomplish much. It never feels good to go through a day like that, but sometimes it can't be avoided. Luckily, today I avoid it.

I couldn't sleep last night. I took a sleeping pill and laid in bed but my mind was racing... thoughts of the project I'm working on, thoughts of a game I played, just... thoughts, endless thoughts that never stop. I got up and spent some time on the computer, played some Borderlands 2, and then tried to lay back down and sleep. Again, I was feeling hungry, distracted and uncomfortable. I got up again and warmed a microwaveable pizza, and sat again at the computer. I ate, and read some more, and it wasn't until about 12:30am or so that I finally went back to bed.

You think you know me? Anything about me? at all?

I'm tired. I feel as though I've been on a non-stop... something. Always going, never resting; Never feeling at rest. Drinking, being around people... to some this may seem normal, or even desired, but it's not normal to me, for me, it's not normal.

I always say I'm never gonna drink anything again after I drink... but I always just feel so crappy after.

I'm just doing a bit of school work before I go to sleep... sadly the sleeping pill has kicked in and I'm having issues concentrating.

I've got some time off of work, and I've decided to keep my activities simple. Do a few things I've wished I could've done if I had more time to myself, play lots of games, and relax. It sounds like a good plan to me, so I'll see how it goes.

I feel slightly better this morning than I have in the last couple days, and I didn't have as much trouble falling asleep last night, and certainly didn't worry or feel crappy while I was trying to sleep. I still wasn't as tired or.. wound down as I would've liked, and I think it might have been because I had just played The Sims 2 (PC) an hour (44 minutes) before I had tried to sleep, so my mind was still active, thinking about the game... basically I was still awake and excited and stuff, and thus it was more difficult for me to fall asleep. I think that I'm going to make a rule for myself from now on where if I want to fall asleep by 1am, I shouldn't play games past 11pm, and should simply stick to watching TV's or a movie after that, since I can lay in bed and get into sleep mode.

I'm quite the angry fellow lately... I've found myself getting angry, frustrated, annoyed and violent a lot easier lately, and I'm not really sure why. I know I hold a lot of things in, and try to ignore it all by doing mindless chores all day, but sometimes it just doesn't work and I just have to scream obsenities. It's been coming out while playing games lately... I find myself getting really angry when I don't do well, and that's something that I've never really had a problem with when playing games (except a few)... I never really mind when I lose normally, but lately I just want to smash the tv, throw the controller, turn it off and then kill everyone. Way to go!