Excessive

It's weird sitting around in a room full of sick, upset, aggonizing people. It leaves me feeling pretty odd and I don't really like looking around much, as people seem too real, like they are incapable of putting up the shield that we all leave the house with.

Is this the end of a tiring week or the start of a new one? It's hard to say really, but I feel so drained and empty and ready to retreat and run away and climb somewhere dark and be quiet and sleep and disappear and just not exist for awhile. I want to just give up and let go and not feel like weight stacked on top of me all the time.

Today could've been much worse.

I've lost the will to fight I was not made for life

I attended java class virtually this morning via FanLive and it actually worked this time. We did more data structures like maps, hash tables and tree sets and all that, it was fairly interesting although slightly repetitive and boring, but still, I followed along and did the work. I have an in-class quiz on Monday and an in-class assignment on friday, so the two days that I usually stay home, I have to go, so it's going to make the week feel long.

It's too late to write anything now...

I should have a lot to write about... but I don't. I'm empty, lost without a word at the fingertip.

I really shouldn't listen to depressing music but I can't help it.

I haven't really sat down and written anything this week, and I apologize to my future self for not writing more often. I've had a slightly strange week, I guess I mentioned it before, but I am feeling pretty much normal again now, and I think a lot of different things had to do with it, mostly things I don't really know, or can't really explain, just normal/abnormal mood swings that have plagued me for a long time.

I feel siiiiick :(