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I had trouble sleeping again last night, I got another headache, although no where near as bad as the night before, as I mentioned I wanted to die the other night, but last night wasn't nearly as bad. It was keeping me awake, and I had to be up for 6:00am to get to school, so it was causing me some frustration, and while I admit it's probably related to my neck/back pain, it feels like that's slowly getting better, as it's not really that noticeable today. I finally got to sleep around 3:30pm or so, but woke up late, very late, like three hours too late. To add insult to injury, I also still had a headache and no pills to take to try and make it feel better.

I think I almost died last night, for serious. I was doing okay after work really, I was relaxing on the couch as best I could, talking to Ally while she watched New York, I Love You, one of my favorite movies this year, but just as I was doing that, a headache hit me, and so I closed my laptop and laid down, falling asleep on the couch almost instantly, but when I woke up, not sure when as I didn't even look at the clock, I just had such a bad migraine, I felt so sick. I took a couple tylenol, changed into my pijamas and just moved to the bed. I spent the entire night tossing and turning, pressing on my head for relief, sitting up in bed, slamming my face into a pillow, trying to get comfortable, to feel any kind of relief, and it was just torture. I was in such pain, such discomfort, that I just wished I could have called in sick, I almost wish I could've just shot myself in the head, it just hurt so bad. Around 3:30am, I was still rolling around like a mother fucker, and I got out of bed, took three more tylenol, drank a glass of lemonaid and then got back in bed to try and sleep. It took awhile to get comfortable but I eventually fell asleep, and woke up at 6:15am, my headache was still there but I could feel the tylenol holding the headache back, like it could return at any second, but at the time I had a bit of relief, so I had breakfast and went to work.

I have an ouch headache, and my back hurts.

Yeah I just closed my browser without thinking about it and erased like, two paragraphs of text.

I've been having difficulty redesigning the backend of this website recently, I've been trying to recreate it in a completely object oriented design, but I've been having a lot of trouble visualizing it in my head, or even on paper, but I've been having a lot of issues with concentration in the last couple of weeks. Even now, I'm rewriting the same lines of text twice in a row and shit, and having to backspace.

I slept in today and woke up late, around 9:30 or so, and pretty much just layed on the couch the entire day. I was depressed, I was completely spiritless, I was down, crushed, slow, lazy, low. I watched Jimmy Fallon with breakfast, which was awesome, I put on some movies, specifically I watched My Name Is Bruce which is this awesome Bruce Cambell movie. I also watched half of the Hangover because I love it and it's funny. While the movies were on or whatever, I slowly worked away at some of the website stuff, I actually made a bit of progress by working on the user class, which handles logging in beautifully, I simply create an instance of a user object, and then call user.login() and bam, if the user has the login information stored in cookies, it checks that, and it also checks to see if someone submitted a login form and tries to login with that if it exists... yeah, you don't care, but it helps to type it out because it might give me ideas.

I'm cold, watching bad movies, and can't really get anything done, think or concentrate.

I'm getting a headache, and I'm really hot at the moment. Blerh.

I was going to write earlier today, but it seems like everything today exists only to force me to put off things I wanted to do until I didn't want to do them anymore.

Yeah, I slept in but just in time to make it to school. I woke up at 9:47, and I have to leave by 10:05 to make it to the bus in time, so I ate as fast as I could, got dressed and ran out of the door... it was unpleasant to say the least, and prefer having a half hour to an hour to get ready to go.

Oh man did today start in the worst way possible... When I left for school this morning, it was wet out but wasn't really raining, just spitting out, really light, so I wasn't worried. About the time I got to the bus stop, it was pouring so hard that I couldn't even face into the wind, and I stood there for like... 15 minutes, in the pouring rain, my coat, hood, jeans, socks, shoes... were soaked, dripping. I think it was a test somehow, I had promised myself to go to school every day this week, and yet here, on the first day of the week it's pouring rain and presenting itself as the perfect day to stay in and sleep, but I stuck through it. I considered turning back and going home once I started getting really wet and uncomfortable, but I told myself that I had to go to school, so I did.

Wow, music through my awesome headphones coming out of my computer sounds so freakin good compared to my iPod. There is so much detail to the sound! I can hear such little noises and effects, it's awesome. The true way to listen to The Age of Adz for sure.