Excessive

I feel like I've woken up into a world where I don't belong... I'm just clinging to a few things.. a few important things... but I guess I'm scared; just really, really scared.

I have this... 'thing'... where I 'write' or have an innerdialog of what I would write for my entry, and it sounds so good, and makes sense and expresses exactly what I want to say, so then I get out of my bath, sit down at the computer, and everything is blank, and nothing can come out how it sounded in my head. It's quite frustrating really, since it would feel so good to just write it all out.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESS!

Just posting to let everyone know that I'm alive! and... uh... twitchy! I'm currently eating a bagel and cream cheese and a glass of orange juice, and am wondering when I'll get around to uploading Alice In Videoland, IRIS, Mind.In.A.Box and Seabound for my good (and quite attractive) friend Dylan! or.. D to the ylanmeister, as we call him in the hood.

this is what happens when you
don't check your email for almost a week... AGH! 79!? jeeze...

Well, it's Christmas Eve and I feel I should make an entry tonight since I usually like to have major holidays documented for viewing in the years to come, so I guess that's why I'm writing right now; not so much because I want to, but because I know I'd be mad if I go to look at what I did for Christmas in 2005 only to find no entry.

This is just a little update, since I plan on making a real one tonight or tomorrow, but I thought I'd just throw up a quick entry.

I spent today at my Sisters with my Mom and Linzie... I cooked them a nice roast chicken dinner and we just hung out and exchanged gifts for Christmas and had a good time all around... a really good time.

blah blah blah random bullshit crap stuff. who fucking cares. I fucking sure as hell don't.

Yes, just because I haven't been online MSN doesn't mean I'm dead so please don't jump to any conclusions *glares*

I'm just taking a vacation...