Excessive

Hey, it's 8:05am, I'm in class and I'm using MY laptop. HAH! Now that's luck! What isn't lucky is how much my backpack weighs with two laptops and a lunch in it :(

Alright, so things haven't been going as smoothly as I had hoped for. On the first day of school, after my break, I had my second class, and when I opened my laptop, I noticed all the colors were messed up. White's had interlaced light blue vertical lines through them, blacks had swirling, fuzzy red dots in them, and everything was off. I had to contact HP support via live chat, and he instructed me to strongly press up and down on the lcd panel, which after trying, turned the screen black for a second, and then the colors came back normal. Problem solved.

Woot.

aaand off I go

I used to take sleeping pills a lot... like every night for a year, maybe two years, maybe even more than that. I used to take them and then still not be able to sleep, but a strange thing happens when you don't sleep but you've taken two sleeping pills, you basically get high. I used to unintentionally get high, and then sit down and write long, detailed, interesting entries on this website. That's where it came from, and that's why I can't do it anymore. I used to be so open, so honest, so aggressive, I used to have no problem writing paragraph after paragraph but now, I struggle to even write enough to justify submitting. It's weird to think that I can only write well when I'm on sleeping pills, and I like to tell myself that that's bullshit, but you know, I really think it's true now.

I just had the most real feeling dream, and waking up felt so odd... left me with such strange, real feelings. It's a fucked up world in there...

So it's late, but not as late as the last two nights, as I figured I should go to bed earlier and earlier over the next few days to get ready for how early I'll need to get up for school.

Yeah so there was a time when I didn't have webspace because of some bullshit service cancelled itself and blah blah blah, I lost some entries, and on top of that used google's Blogger service for a year or so before repurchasing webspace.

I stayed up way too late working on a programming project that wasn't even neccessary, and now my eyes hurt and I have a headache but for some reason the last thing I want to do right now is go and lay down for the night. It sucks because I know I should, and I don't really feel like falling asleep watching TV either, so I guess I'll just suck it up, get changed and go to sleep.

Today has been one of my lazyiest days yet, although I did still do some housework, I haven't been able to force myself to do anything personally productive, like work on some projects, or organize something and so on. Ah well, that's what this time off is for right?