Excessive

I'm in Hamilton right now, sitting at my Grandpa's computer, installing Direct X and Ad-Aware, talking to Mark and Sarah, waiting for his dial-up internet to download some things.

I should be getting the internet back in a few days, so things might be returning to normal here, with writing every day and the such.

Today is new computer day for my Mom!

Apparently today is bad movie day!

Mark let me borrow his PS1 so that I can play Final Fantasy Tactics, because that game doesn't work in my PS2 at all.. I bought three different copies of the game and none worked... they just spin up and make cracking sounds... aaaanyway, I've got it hooked up now and I've been playing it during the day and it's lots-o-fun, and keeps me occupied and it's really addictive, so I loves it.

TACOS!!!

I still don't have the internet.

A break from my complete and total insanity as I make my way to Michelle's place for supper, internet access and the ability to speak to my friends who I so miss.

Still doing the same things as I mentioned in my last entry. Spending the day home alone without TV or Internet is extremely difficult and I really feel like I'm going crazy. It's such a relief when Michelle gets home from work and I have company, someone to just feel the presence of, it's very comforting. I hate being alone like this... so isolated.

Considering the circumstances, I think I'm holding up pretty well under stress, although I don't exactly feel alive, and I'm often confused about where I am and what I'm doing. I think I'm finally starting to lose whatever sanity I had left, as I don't feel like myself, and it's no help that I have no one to talk to.