Excessive

Ugh, I'm nervous to go to work tomorrow. I have butterflies in my stomach and can't sit still.. feel nervous. Dammit..

Uh oh, it's almost time to go back to work after having twelve days off with no work. It kinda sucks to be honest, I've gotten so used to not having to go to that place and deal with things from there that it seems weird to have to go back. However, it should be fairy simple considering my shift is only 7-3 and then Sunday will be simple too, and then I don't have to worry about it for another week. I've yet to decide on if I want to take any extra shifts, and if I do what days, but I'll continue to think about it and try to figure it out.

I just watched Up In The Air and now it's pretty late so I should get ready and go to sleep. I had originally intended to write something tonight, but I suppose I can always do it in class tomorrow considering it's so below my level.

Hey, it's 8:05am, I'm in class and I'm using MY laptop. HAH! Now that's luck! What isn't lucky is how much my backpack weighs with two laptops and a lunch in it :(

Alright, so things haven't been going as smoothly as I had hoped for. On the first day of school, after my break, I had my second class, and when I opened my laptop, I noticed all the colors were messed up. White's had interlaced light blue vertical lines through them, blacks had swirling, fuzzy red dots in them, and everything was off. I had to contact HP support via live chat, and he instructed me to strongly press up and down on the lcd panel, which after trying, turned the screen black for a second, and then the colors came back normal. Problem solved.

Woot.

aaand off I go

I used to take sleeping pills a lot... like every night for a year, maybe two years, maybe even more than that. I used to take them and then still not be able to sleep, but a strange thing happens when you don't sleep but you've taken two sleeping pills, you basically get high. I used to unintentionally get high, and then sit down and write long, detailed, interesting entries on this website. That's where it came from, and that's why I can't do it anymore. I used to be so open, so honest, so aggressive, I used to have no problem writing paragraph after paragraph but now, I struggle to even write enough to justify submitting. It's weird to think that I can only write well when I'm on sleeping pills, and I like to tell myself that that's bullshit, but you know, I really think it's true now.

I just had the most real feeling dream, and waking up felt so odd... left me with such strange, real feelings. It's a fucked up world in there...

So it's late, but not as late as the last two nights, as I figured I should go to bed earlier and earlier over the next few days to get ready for how early I'll need to get up for school.